I'm not really sure where to start or what exactly to say about the Five Points of Life Marathon this weekend. It was definitely not my day.
This isn't going to be my normal, upbeat recap, so if you'd rather not read, I understand. I'll save you the time and tell you now: I finished with an official time of 4:50:36.
Things started pretty good. I was looking forward to this race because it was small and familiar. There were 168 people that finished the full, but well over 600 people that ran the half. The marathon (orange bibs) and half marathon (blue bibs) started at the same time, but used different road lanes. Approximately 3.5 seconds after the gun went off, the halfers zoomed past us.
At the start- with smiles on our faces.
Let's break this race into two halves.
The First Half
I started out fast. Way too fast. There were rolling hills for the first 6-8 miles. In that time, I was passed left and right, by blue bib after blue bib. I started to hate the color blue. I felt strong, but I could tell the weather was not going to be on my side. It was in the 70's with upwards to 85% humidity. Even though it was overcast, I'm just not use to that kind of weather anymore since I moved out of Florida, and especially after doing all my 'winter' training in the Carolinas. My body never got the memo that it needed to start sweating. There were also some parts that were incredibly windy.
Around mile 7 (or 6? or maybe 8?) I saw David, my mom, and the fur kids. I told them I was tired. I had no idea.
I ended up running into a guy from last year's race, the one who encouraged me for the last three miles of the half marathon. I was busy trying not freak out about how tired I was already, and fight breathing cramps, so I didn't recognized him until he brought it up.
He congratulated me on moving to the marathon this year. He said, "friends don't let friends run half marathons." Those words are still haunting me.
We ran through sorority row, past the music buildings, through the stadium (my personal favorite: they had music and game commentary blasting), through the heart of campus, through fraternity row, past the bat house, and next to Lake Alice. If you'd like a more detailed description of the race, read last year's recap
here.
I was starting to feel better, though I was slowing down a bit. I was on pace to finish in 4:20.
I saw my crew again around mile 12.
A brief visit with the "I feel good" feeling
At mile 13, half marathoners went one direction, while the crazy, masochistic, and psychologically unstable runners went the other direction.
I passed the half marathon split at about 2:12, which was faster than my time from last year's half.
The Second Half
I had been struggling since mile 6, but at this point it officially went to hell.
I let go of any hope that things would get better, that I would find a groove. I was definitely getting dehydrated. I was going back and forth being too warm and feeling goosebumps. My legs were tired, but surprisingly nothing hurt. My stomach wasn't upset, but I had bloating and cramps every time I ran. My mouth was so dry it was hard to take down Gu.
One of my Dad's good running buddies happened to be in Gainesville for the day (she ran the 100k Iron Horse Saturday and killed it, major kudos to her!). She was a life saver. She went back and forth between me and my dad on her bike (we were never more than a quarter mile apart, he was having some cramping/dehydration issues as well), encouraging us and giving us supplements.
Crossing the road at mile 20 with Kathleen.
When I told her my sweating problem, she immediately made me take some e-caps. When I ran out of fluid in my 70 oz camelbak, she biked up to the next aid station to request they fill me back up with ice water. She reminded me (commanded me?) to eat my Bloks and drink my Gatorade. When my walk breaks got too long, she reminded me to run. When I wanted to sit down and quit, she encouraged me to keep going. When I hit mile 25 and started crying because I was so tired and mentally shot, she told me to calm down and collect myself.
I don't know if you read this blog Kathleen, but thank you for being my marathon angel!
I also can't say how great the police officers and transportation officers were who were keeping the runners safe. At every single intersection, there was a cruiser and officer directing traffic. Nearly every single one of them cheered us on, telling us how great we looked (lies! all lies!).
The police officer stopping traffic for my dad to cross at mile 20.
There were also medical tents every few miles (I think they're more common in the south because of the heat/humidity), staffed by sports medicine students. Not only were they attentive to our needs, but they encouraged and cheered us on like we were the most important participant in the race.
It's hard to describe the physical and mental fatigue that you get when you 'hit the wall' in distance running. With this marathon, I felt like I was hitting some wall or another from miles 6 to 26. That's a long time to be in pain. That's a long time to fight. Somewhere toward the end, Kathleen said something that every runner has heard but can always be reminded of: Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.
At mile 20, I knew I wasn't going to meet even the slowest of my time goals. A few miles later, I didn't even know if I was going to be able to break 5 hours. It's funny how you can feel so great going into a race and then it can turn around and beat you up.
After I saw the flag for mile 26, I decided I was going to run to the finish. Come hell or high water, I wasn't going to walk anymore. Other runners and spectators were cheering for me as I rode the biggest wave of emotion to the finish mat.
These folks were cheering so loud it sounded like there were a 100 of them!
I didn't notice David or the dogs or the photographer or even the time clock. All I knew is I had just finished the biggest physical and mental battle of my life and tears were streaming down my face.
Clearly my "run happy" shirt did nothing ;)
I tried to smile as I crossed the finish line, but I'm sure it will turn out to be a freaky looking grimace.
My dad says I had a good day, not because I met my time goal or felt good, but because I fought through the pain and finished. He said I had a good race because I didn't give up.
In my head, I know he's right. But in my heart, I feel like I failed. I feel like I failed myself, my family, and you all- my readers.
Maybe this is really a reflection on my naivety. Perhaps I'm too new to running to really understand the accomplishment of fighting hard for something, even if it's not in the time you had hoped. Hopefully one day I'll understand.
Not to worry, I was smiling by the time we got 'home.' You can't really tell from the picture, but the race shirt is of the 34th Street Wall. And the medal is pretty awesome-sauce.
Official time: 4:50:36
Overall Place: 104/168
Overall Gender Place: 34/60
Age Group Place: 9/17
The prizes of life are at the end of each journey, not the beginning; and it is not given to me to know how many steps are necessary in order to reach my goal. Failure I may still encounter at the thousandth step, yet success hides behind the next bend in the road. Never will I know how close it lies unless I turn the corner. Always will I take another step. If that is of no avail I will take another, and yet another. In truth, one step at a time is not too difficult. I will persist until I succeed.
-Og Mandino